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bonnie checked out as well.

i should never have gone out when she refused to eat the carrots. i should have done something. anything.

i was afraid to touch her. to find out that she'd truly gone stiff.

i understand now why people shed tears when those they hold dear perish.

the combined wave of shock, grief, regret, guilt, and the inability to express anything.

the ultimate futility of even forming coherent thoughts.

i caused this.

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