my lid

went for another ride today.

not as fast as yesterday, though. i happen to like the idea of being alive.

zoned out for a while...

weird happenstance #1 : had a near-death experience due to zoning out. no such thing happened yesterday. almost smashed into the rear left corner of a van. or was it front corner? can't remember.

weird happenstance #2 : prolly due to yesterday's high-octane riding, #1 seemed to happen in slow motion. i had enough time to think which way i wanted to maneuver to siam the van. even had the initiative to tilt my head to the left to siam the mirror as i zoomed past. think the driver just stun there a while.

met up with someone from camp for lunner(well, if there's such a word as brunch...) he once called me 猛將 cos of the way i ride, the paintwork on my bike, n the helmet i own. anyway, not important.

the point? i think yim's right about driving like a maniac to prepare for the day when u have a near-accident. ur reflexes might well be the only thing that saves u.

still dun like to sit in any vehicle he drives though. his driving is so perilous it over-justifies his own theory. i'd rather be in control of my own life, thanks.

my lid is where it belongs. on my shoulders.
did i disappoint you or let you down
should i be feeling guilty or let the judges frown
cause i saw the end before we'd begun
yes i saw you were blinded and i knew i had won

so i took what's mine by eternal right
took your soul out into the night
it may be over but it won't stop there
i am here for you if you'd only care

you touched my heart, you touched my soul
changed my life and all my goals
and love is blind and that i knew when
my heart was blinded by you

i've kissed your lips and held your head
shared your dreams and shared your bed
i know you well, i know your smell
i've been addicted to you

goodbye my lover
goodbye my friend
you have been the one
you have been the one for me
goodbye my lover
goodbye my friend
you have been the one
you have been the one for me

i am a dreamer and when i wake
you can't break my spirit, it's my dreams you take
and as you move on remember me
remember us and all we used to be

i've seen you cry, i've seen you smile
i've watched you sleeping for a while
i'd be the father of your child
i'd spend a lifetime with you

i know your fears and you know mine
we've had our doubts but now we're fine
and i love you, i swear that's true
i cannot live without you

goodbye my lover
goodbye my friend
you have been the one
you have been the one for me
goodbye my lover
goodbye my friend
you have been the one
you have been the one for me

and i still hold your hand in mine
in mine when i'm asleep
and i will bare my soul in time
when i'm kneeling at your feet

goodbye my lover
goodbye my friend
you have been the one
you have been the one for me
goodbye my lover
goodbye my friend
you have been the one
you have been the one for me

i'm so hollow, baby, i'm so hollow
i'm so, i'm so, i'm so hollow
i'm so hollow, baby, i'm so hollow
i'm so, i'm so, i'm so hollow

i am waking up from this mental prison.