friends

friends. who are they?

r they the ones who help u up when u falter? r they the ones who would share joy n sorrow together with u? r they the ones who would go through thick and thin with u?
definitely.

those r ur friends. n i have very few of those.

so wat do i have?

i have brothers n sisters. not for wat they've done for me or wat i expect them to do, but for wat i am willing to do for them. i will help those whom i think need help. i will pick up the fallen ones. i will laugh with them when they're happy, weep with them in times of sorrow, pay with them when the tab comes, fight alongside them when they get into brawls, be a fool with them when they're in a playful mood, n bleed with them when the need arises.

alas, for that i have lost much. i used to have lots of those friends. i used to do everything for them. but they took me for granted. they have taken so much advantage of me that there was a period when i thought giving in to them was the only way. only recently, long after i have broken contact with them, have i come to understand that these people were not my friends. i should not have done so much for them. y? because they never appreciated me or wat i have done for them.

i still do these things. but only for selected people, for those whom i think r worth my time n effort. others might think i'm a selfish n uncaring bastard, but those others r probably also the ones who made me this way. to those people, or anyone else, ask urself: wat have u done for me in all those long years when we were still friends? i thought about this question. i thought long n hard, n u know wat, i can't come up with a single instance.

so y do all those motivation lines n speeches only revolve around wat ur friends do for u, n not wat u do for ur friends? how come they seem to dive straight into the details n miss the big picture entirely? u r the one who's living the life. u r the one who's paying the taxes. u r the one who's celebrating the birthday. u r the one who's making all the rules. so ask urself this: r u doing enough for these friends of urs? r u as selfless as u wish ur friends were?

well, i do wish everyone's as selfless as i hope i am, but that's just wishful thinking.

n this is the wrong place to post this, because we all know how the locals behave. most can't even be bothered to help out when the person beside them slips n falls on a rainy day, or lend a helping hand to the shocked driver in a traffic accident. but i just had to say it out somewhere, n here's as good a place as any.

n i'm really, really bored right now, n feeling abit emo. well, happens to everybody once in a while, n i'm not immune.